Monday, March 31, 2003
Argh... Finally found some time to Blog huh? Geez... Stop your "Blog-break" excuse Berd~! Before your Blogging habit die off altogether~!!!
Sigh... Life certainly looks bleak these days... With a war raging on in Middle East... A mysterious disease spreading ard Asia... (Amongst mostly Chinese only if you have noticed...) Lives are lost with each passing day... And there seems to be no end to this... As for the rest of the world... We are all addicted to the news hoping to read of Saddam's fall... A new breakthrough in medical science ending the SARs epidemic... We read to learn of wat's happening around the world... How we can learn from this war and this epidemic... And how we can protect ourselves and our loved ones... All in the name of "Knowledge is power"... True? Bullshit I reckon...
In my opinion... Wat we are actually reading up in the news is the suffering of others to alleviate ours... In some way or another... We are subconsciously addicted to disasters and crisis around the world... So that by knowing how others suffer to survive... We feel good about ourselves and our lives... True or false? I'll leave it for you guys to decide... **FOOD FOR THOUGHT**
You go to work in the morning... Weary of everyone and everything ard you... You get down to work and see the same old faces you've seen for the past 1 year... You take out your files and start working at your desk... That Mr Smiley that has been smiling at you all these while... Starts to frown under your delirious imagination... You hate your job... You hate your boss... And you hate your life... How you wished you could be part of a adventure group scaling the heights of Everest and the depths of the Grand Canyon... How you wished you were a famous footballer playing for the likes of Real Madrid... Alongside Zidane and Figo... How you wished... How you wished...
At times I wonder... If it's me or the world... That the end of mankind seems scarily near... The all elusive, hypothetical armageddon from Bible stories is about to take place... Am I frightening myself? Am I scaring myself? Am I too pestimistic about life? I seriously do not think so... In my humble opinion... There's really nothing left in life to look forward to... Whether if it's ORD-ing.. Whether if it's getting a degree... Even after PASSING MY TP 2 weeks ago... I feel nothing abt it... And that life... Is next to meaningless... Maybe I'm starting to feel the pinch of being single and lonely... Maybe I'm too addicted to the Internet... Making my life seem worthless staring into that square monitor talking to my cyber frens... Maybe maybe...
Well I dun think I'm the only one suffering from depression (Is that it?) in this gloomy world we're in... Recently a well-known actor, Leslie Cheong aka Zhang Guo Rong, committed suicide by jumping off from one of the HK hotels... Believed to have failed in his love life and was too, suffering from depression, he took his own life leaving his loved ones and not to mention, countless of female fans heart-broken... Such a talent in the music industry... Such a colourful personality... Desperate and depressed... Lept to his own death... I have to admit... Even the most happy-go-lucky guy like myself may not be immune to depression... In fact... I think it's such people who are more likely to take their own lives... Sometimes... Such a person is just putting on a facade... Alone at home... Who knows what goes on behind those closed doors... I wouldn't say I was wearing a mask in front of others... But I always believe that I shouldn't be selfish enuff to impede someone else's happiness or enjoyment by being moody myself... If so... Don't be there at all~!!! As for taking my own life... It has (scarily crossed my mind...) But after giving it much thought... I think it wouldn't happen to me... Why? Firstly... I'M TOO AFRAID TO DO SO~! Secondly... There have been so many other worse things that have happened to me during my days in OCS and such... So why should anything else bother me? Thirdly... I haven't had a cute girlfren and maybe she can turn things around for me and make my life meaningful again~!!! Hehez...
Well I sure hope this bad feeling about myself and the world can disappear soon enuff or else my mind would be permanently damaged... Cos I know... No one would be able to unlock that negative thoughts for you but yourself... And that your happiness lies in your own hands and no one else's... (Maybe juz that other half of you...) And I hope I can find that one thing (Hopefully that one thing is a cute girl-friend~!!!) that can make my life again... Last but not least... If your fren your fren is suffering from depression or something close to that... Try not to advise him/her on what you should should not do... "Look on the bright side of life..." and "Your life is what you percieve it to be... Juz be happy and everything will be fine..." It's seriously not as simple as you make it sound to be... And also cos by doing so... It's like I've said earlier... Putting on a false impression for others to admire when you're obviously not... We're, I believe, definitely past that and hearing such stuff would make us either more irritated or frustrated and make us think you're such a dope...
Thank you for tolerating my Blog... I juz needa express my inner heart-felt feelings to all who care about me... I would deeply appreciate it if you could... After reading this Blog... Ask me out on a kopi chat... GALS EXPECIALLY~!!! Haha...
Quote Of The Day:
Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones;
and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task,
go to sleep in peace. ~ Victor Hugo
Take pleasure in simple things in life... And reward yourself more than you should for the time being... This strategy... I SHALL ADOPT~!!!
Sigh... Life certainly looks bleak these days... With a war raging on in Middle East... A mysterious disease spreading ard Asia... (Amongst mostly Chinese only if you have noticed...) Lives are lost with each passing day... And there seems to be no end to this... As for the rest of the world... We are all addicted to the news hoping to read of Saddam's fall... A new breakthrough in medical science ending the SARs epidemic... We read to learn of wat's happening around the world... How we can learn from this war and this epidemic... And how we can protect ourselves and our loved ones... All in the name of "Knowledge is power"... True? Bullshit I reckon...
In my opinion... Wat we are actually reading up in the news is the suffering of others to alleviate ours... In some way or another... We are subconsciously addicted to disasters and crisis around the world... So that by knowing how others suffer to survive... We feel good about ourselves and our lives... True or false? I'll leave it for you guys to decide... **FOOD FOR THOUGHT**
You go to work in the morning... Weary of everyone and everything ard you... You get down to work and see the same old faces you've seen for the past 1 year... You take out your files and start working at your desk... That Mr Smiley that has been smiling at you all these while... Starts to frown under your delirious imagination... You hate your job... You hate your boss... And you hate your life... How you wished you could be part of a adventure group scaling the heights of Everest and the depths of the Grand Canyon... How you wished you were a famous footballer playing for the likes of Real Madrid... Alongside Zidane and Figo... How you wished... How you wished...
At times I wonder... If it's me or the world... That the end of mankind seems scarily near... The all elusive, hypothetical armageddon from Bible stories is about to take place... Am I frightening myself? Am I scaring myself? Am I too pestimistic about life? I seriously do not think so... In my humble opinion... There's really nothing left in life to look forward to... Whether if it's ORD-ing.. Whether if it's getting a degree... Even after PASSING MY TP 2 weeks ago... I feel nothing abt it... And that life... Is next to meaningless... Maybe I'm starting to feel the pinch of being single and lonely... Maybe I'm too addicted to the Internet... Making my life seem worthless staring into that square monitor talking to my cyber frens... Maybe maybe...
Well I dun think I'm the only one suffering from depression (Is that it?) in this gloomy world we're in... Recently a well-known actor, Leslie Cheong aka Zhang Guo Rong, committed suicide by jumping off from one of the HK hotels... Believed to have failed in his love life and was too, suffering from depression, he took his own life leaving his loved ones and not to mention, countless of female fans heart-broken... Such a talent in the music industry... Such a colourful personality... Desperate and depressed... Lept to his own death... I have to admit... Even the most happy-go-lucky guy like myself may not be immune to depression... In fact... I think it's such people who are more likely to take their own lives... Sometimes... Such a person is just putting on a facade... Alone at home... Who knows what goes on behind those closed doors... I wouldn't say I was wearing a mask in front of others... But I always believe that I shouldn't be selfish enuff to impede someone else's happiness or enjoyment by being moody myself... If so... Don't be there at all~!!! As for taking my own life... It has (scarily crossed my mind...) But after giving it much thought... I think it wouldn't happen to me... Why? Firstly... I'M TOO AFRAID TO DO SO~! Secondly... There have been so many other worse things that have happened to me during my days in OCS and such... So why should anything else bother me? Thirdly... I haven't had a cute girlfren and maybe she can turn things around for me and make my life meaningful again~!!! Hehez...
Well I sure hope this bad feeling about myself and the world can disappear soon enuff or else my mind would be permanently damaged... Cos I know... No one would be able to unlock that negative thoughts for you but yourself... And that your happiness lies in your own hands and no one else's... (Maybe juz that other half of you...) And I hope I can find that one thing (Hopefully that one thing is a cute girl-friend~!!!) that can make my life again... Last but not least... If your fren your fren is suffering from depression or something close to that... Try not to advise him/her on what you should should not do... "Look on the bright side of life..." and "Your life is what you percieve it to be... Juz be happy and everything will be fine..." It's seriously not as simple as you make it sound to be... And also cos by doing so... It's like I've said earlier... Putting on a false impression for others to admire when you're obviously not... We're, I believe, definitely past that and hearing such stuff would make us either more irritated or frustrated and make us think you're such a dope...
Thank you for tolerating my Blog... I juz needa express my inner heart-felt feelings to all who care about me... I would deeply appreciate it if you could... After reading this Blog... Ask me out on a kopi chat... GALS EXPECIALLY~!!! Haha...
Quote Of The Day:
Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones;
and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task,
go to sleep in peace. ~ Victor Hugo
Take pleasure in simple things in life... And reward yourself more than you should for the time being... This strategy... I SHALL ADOPT~!!!
Sunday, March 16, 2003
Geez... I've always wanted a super long Blog-break... And this one certainly is!!! Coming back from South Africa and Thailand... The feeling... Is mixed... Sad to be back and stuck in a boring and monotonous country like S'pore... Sad to be back working... And happy too... To be back on familiar grounds safe and sound... To be typing away furiously on my comp with god-like connection speed (compared to Thailand's...) I think their entire city of 5.6m people are routed on a single 56.6k modem man!!! Geez! Get a TI-LAN connection people~!!
Bangkok never fails to amaze me... No wonder the phrase "Amazing Thailand..." Being there for the 2nd time in 3 months... I am SICK of shopping man... SICK TO THE CORE!! Reminds me of those unpleasant things that happened not too long ago... This time round... Kheng Lee and Thong Lee accompanied me to the Temple of the Dawn... WAT ARUN~!! That place 1 kind of a Sentosa man... Specialised in turning all tourists into chopping carrots of the millenium~! We had a lot of fun though... I've got a couple of star buys again this time round... But nothing compares to my PAN boots bought earlier on man... For $24 (or $40 ?) it's really a steal and it's serving me extremely well on the pitches for the past 2 months.. I absolutely dig it baby~!!!
Coming back from Thailand after 3 weeks... I'm kind of lost... It was hard initially picking up all the loose ends and missing my driving lesson certainly didn't help... 2 weeks after touching down now... It certainly seemed like a month or so after such a busy 2 weeks... Well I can look towards my ORD for comfort that very soon... I'll not be subjected to such work liao... So work hard while @ it and more importantly... Enjoy working on it~!
I'll fill you people in abt me in soon to come... And the amazing people I encountered in Thailand and South Africa soon to come... Over the next few Blogs... For now... I juz wanna enjoy a few last games of WC3 and sleep for a better and fresher Berd tomolo~!!
Quote Of The Day:
"Enjoy when you can, and endure when you must." ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
How true... How very very true... Enjoy (endure) your hard work in NS now Berd... For soon you'll be missing it~!
Shouts out to:
All : I'm back~! Ask me out to catch up if you want~!
Barney, Guohui, Jackson, Tecky, Ming Chiang Chiang Dong Dong Chiang : ORD LOR!!!!
Kheng Lee, Thong Lee : SAWADI-CARP~!!
NanYing : Harlow~! Good for you... You've got your own BlogSpot up~! Be sure to keep it going~!
Irene and perhaps Yoyo : Thanks for reading... Sorry for not writing~!!!
RECCOS FC : Love you guys... NTU NUS here we come!
Liverton / Everpool FC : Let's maintain our form win more matches to come~!!!
MAD buddy boys (Michael, Anil and Damien) : We ought to meet up to talk cock man... It's been ages~!!!
BlueRibbons : "My blade and armour of 6 inches..." Keep the WC3 spirit alive and going guys~!!!
Bangkok never fails to amaze me... No wonder the phrase "Amazing Thailand..." Being there for the 2nd time in 3 months... I am SICK of shopping man... SICK TO THE CORE!! Reminds me of those unpleasant things that happened not too long ago... This time round... Kheng Lee and Thong Lee accompanied me to the Temple of the Dawn... WAT ARUN~!! That place 1 kind of a Sentosa man... Specialised in turning all tourists into chopping carrots of the millenium~! We had a lot of fun though... I've got a couple of star buys again this time round... But nothing compares to my PAN boots bought earlier on man... For $24 (or $40 ?) it's really a steal and it's serving me extremely well on the pitches for the past 2 months.. I absolutely dig it baby~!!!
Coming back from Thailand after 3 weeks... I'm kind of lost... It was hard initially picking up all the loose ends and missing my driving lesson certainly didn't help... 2 weeks after touching down now... It certainly seemed like a month or so after such a busy 2 weeks... Well I can look towards my ORD for comfort that very soon... I'll not be subjected to such work liao... So work hard while @ it and more importantly... Enjoy working on it~!
I'll fill you people in abt me in soon to come... And the amazing people I encountered in Thailand and South Africa soon to come... Over the next few Blogs... For now... I juz wanna enjoy a few last games of WC3 and sleep for a better and fresher Berd tomolo~!!
Quote Of The Day:
"Enjoy when you can, and endure when you must." ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
How true... How very very true... Enjoy (endure) your hard work in NS now Berd... For soon you'll be missing it~!
Shouts out to:
All : I'm back~! Ask me out to catch up if you want~!
Barney, Guohui, Jackson, Tecky, Ming Chiang Chiang Dong Dong Chiang : ORD LOR!!!!
Kheng Lee, Thong Lee : SAWADI-CARP~!!
NanYing : Harlow~! Good for you... You've got your own BlogSpot up~! Be sure to keep it going~!
Irene and perhaps Yoyo : Thanks for reading... Sorry for not writing~!!!
RECCOS FC : Love you guys... NTU NUS here we come!
Liverton / Everpool FC : Let's maintain our form win more matches to come~!!!
MAD buddy boys (Michael, Anil and Damien) : We ought to meet up to talk cock man... It's been ages~!!!
BlueRibbons : "My blade and armour of 6 inches..." Keep the WC3 spirit alive and going guys~!!!
